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well the name's melvin loh from SJI and im gonna sum up my life in jus a few sentences!!!here they are... i HATE a maths(so much for my first ever post) i like school i get frustrated and aggitated easily im reliable most of the time... and im patient if u catch me in a good mood i LURVE my church(jus transferred this yr) RISEN CHRIST!!!! anyway if u REALLI wanna noe more jus go chek out my frenster @ mylifesucsforever@yahoo.com.sg!!!

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boring ppl wif my bydtching, crapping, eating, sleeping, watching movies,the exercise of emily rose... harry bladder... mr and mr smith..., date movie!!!!, any other cheesy romantic comedies...,xmen3(NOT xxx men),SPONGEBOB!!!
anything by evanescence, nathalie imbruglia, paris hilton's nothing in this world(the onli song by her i like), melodies of life, suteki da ne, high sch musical, within temptations, run and chasing cars by snow patrol, keane

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

hi everyone! (if theres anyone lol) its been quite a while. i almost forgot what if felt like to blog already... anyway i've been keeping pretty busy, even tmr i've got an exam and yet i feel compelled to write this. if no one reads this then let this post be part of a memory then.

i haven't been doing much deep reflection lately until i visited legion last week during my break and gave my bible sharing. Actually thinking back, i was probably venting all my withheld angst and frustration then. it felt good. as legion always does.

recently, Hansel has been getting me to do some serious thinking about the way things are. basically after leaving sji, living the faith has become so difficult. even in CJ. religious classes aren't held every week... only once in 3 maybe. and it doesn't feel the same... it's as if they're going through another period without bothering to ensure that we're learning anything out of it- as if they're just going through the motions.

they cover topics like "choices" or "the shroud of turin"or "family". but haven't these things been covered since the earlier days of primary school? true, not every catholic in CJ has been through a catholic school, but even moral education classes have covered them. "the shroud of turin" was new...but from what it seemed, they were teaching it as something that roots us to the faith. an object rooting us to the faith? doesn't convince me... and i've heard that the teachers receive what they're supposed to teach us the day before RE periods... how is that supposed to make us catholics feel? CJ has always claimed to have that special responsibility to catholics... and what about those catholics that chose to come to CJ even though their points could have taken them elsewhere? does it feel that CJ has let them down? where is the catholic ethos?

there are masses every mon, wed and fri, but it doesn't feel the same as morning prayer. truthfully i started going back for morning masses for very shallow reasons- the girl i liked became my anchor to my faith. feeble excuse. previously in sec 3-4 i used to be the pillar that called people for mass with me to risen christ, now... i can't even bring myself to it. what's hapenening?

i've been hearing that seniors who left sji have changed, undoubtedly that's ineveitable, but many have been feeling lost. i guess i can join the club...

so i questioned myself... why? why is this happening? what's new in this equation that has been left out before? my only answer : women.

im not being misogynistic or anything. i don't hate women and i don't blame them for anything that has happened. it's just that they change the environment that i've been used to.

right now, friends who used to talk about many things, now only talk of their girlfriends, their crushes, their love lives. and sometimes if some girl annoys u, u just wouldn't snap back, for fear of hurting their feelings or something, as if they were fragile things. even thoughts are tailored to let what ur saying sound good. maybe we're taking the phrase "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" too seriously.

but anyway, problem for me now is that my faith is dying out... as if some strong wind were snuffing out the remaining fire in me. or rather...embers... cinders...sparks...

im really looking forward to YISS...thank goodness nat pulled me along for it. i'll take her word for it as a "life changing experience". perhaps my search for my sleeping conscience will come to an end. hopefully my flame shall rekindle. i want to feel catholic again.

God save me. God save all of us.

Ar0und tHe w0rLd @* 5:15 AM

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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

hello everyone! i think i MIGHT be shifting to using wordpress soon...cuz it seems like alot less trouble haha! but i guess the grass is always greener on the other side.

speaking of which, i must say, for the FIRST time in my LIFE, i feel so satisfied and happy with my side of the green grass.

alright so im defying the trend of being emo. but i don't care. i don't think i've been this happy in a very long while. in fact... i don't think i've ever been this euphoric!

why? NO... i didn't get a girlfriend. it's because of alot of things. things that i should appreciate that i never did before. thank goodness i haven't lost those things yet. usually people lose them before being grateful for them.

and also because of cjc. im in LOVE with it. im addicted. true its fun, but in a sick sort of way... i kind of like the work im doing too...my subjects are quite tough, but hey im enjoying life. and i am HAPPY.

however, i guess u can't always have a perfect picture... when there are ups, there are downs. advantages, disadvantages. pros and cons.

so what are the cons???

im going to miss those people whom didn't make it to cjc even though they really wanted to. sure i guess i'll see them around... but it's not the same...

but i guess u can't have everything in life... so i wish them good luck in life and wherever they may be posted to. and hope that they get through the transition period asap, for their own sakes.

Ar0und tHe w0rLd @* 12:42 AM

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Saturday, February 16, 2008

its amazing how paradigms can shift so rapidly in jc. for one, just looking at a recent previous post, i mentioned i didn't think i was going to join rugby, well well, how things change haha!

Furthermore, my subject combination is undergoing MASSIVE transformation. currently, i'm taking physics maths econs and histH1. while pondering, i thought that i would change to hist maths econs and litH1. but yet again, i've decided against it. i've finally decided after much consultation from seniors and the prerequisite list for university.

HELM it is

hist econs lit and mathsH1.

why u ask? why not maths H2? as is the path often tread.

many factors contribute to this.

just to name a few important reasons:

1. I HATE MATHS- always have always will (sorry andrew!haha). if i take H2 i predict it'll be a repeat of sec sch, how i constantly have OVERLAPPING remedials for sciences and maths and all because sji's a science school and humanities were considered luxuries.

2.i'm absolutely disinterested in any science faculty in university.

3.i discovered that H2 maths not coupled by phy or chem doesn't qualify me to take any science faculty courses anyway. and if you're wondering if i'm considering taking either physics or chemistry, u can bet ur life on it that i'm NOT ever taking phy or chem EVER again.

4. i had flair for literature back when i was sec 1-2, i think its worth a gamble to try it out.

oh yeah, and for those of you who are wondering what i got for O's, i got a disappointing FAT DISGUSTING 14.

my good subjects had bad grades and my bad subjects had okay grades. not a good combination

just so you know and NEVER PESTER me again to know my grades. here they are.

eng-b3
hist elect-a2
emaths-a1
amaths-b3
phy-a2
chem-b3
chi-c6

im not an elitist for grades, but i do wish they were better. and for those of you whom i got better grades than, i'm not gloating. i've just got a personal standard issue.

and btw i completely hate people who base whether or not they should associate themselves with you because of your grades. manipulative arses who don't befriend people unless they have something to gain from you. disgusting.

Ar0und tHe w0rLd @* 7:46 PM

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

today is a day of mixed feelings for me...i've just nicely settled in to cj life. class...friends...cca... etc.

its most disconcerting to know that tomorrow might be the day it all ends.

hopefully it doesn't. and i get to continue on for the next 2 yrs in cj.

already im so attached to so many people and the whole place in general.

it's so fun. so conducive. so everything.

hope is frail but hard to kill.

i say im not worried... but am i? perhaps a little.

if i cant stay then i'd still have to complete the next 2 weeks in cj i guess...

after all i promised i'd be an asset and i can't let bro paul's high regard of mr ang go down.

first obstacle this... next one... what subject combi... next one...confirming cca

they aren't difficult in a sense like weird amaths questions... the difficulty lies in the choice.

however limited, however broad.

Ar0und tHe w0rLd @* 3:30 AM

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Friday, January 04, 2008

jc life... it ROCKS!!! completely and entirely to the core. cjc is the funnest place to be. orientation has been an absolute blast so far. and i still cannot believe that im in cjc... hahaha oh well. in my index group, most of them are quite sporting people who participate, so i guess i made quite alot of new aquaintances over the past 3 days. my facils liselle and elton are uber nice and they did give us alot of advice esp about subject combi.

familiar faces are everywhere. and im not just talking about sji guys and seniors, im talking about old church friends, primary school mates, people whom i thought i would never meet up again with.

i've decided to change my subject combi though that is after jae... because im taking the same subjects but i swapped a h1 and h2 subject. but then for pae it really doesnt matter cuz in cj everyone does 4 h2s for the first month. so that if we decide to drop a sub to a h1 level it doesnt affect our pace. i've decided to take arts instead of science even though people tell me that during exam periods its alot of content to go through. and since i dont see a sciencey career in store for myself... i guess it really doesnt matter

the games today were all too fun. rolling around in mud...facil kill bowling...flour game...etc. and i think the programme is very organised cuz theres even fillers that kill the time during technical difficulties. mass dance was quite enjoyable even though most of us just follow and dont even know the steps hahahaha...

and the cca bizarre today was very interesting. i signed up for 3 things (no obligation yet) canoeing---trails are next wed. ODAC---cuz its sounds quite fun, and i had company signing up for it haha. and rugby---cuz hansel BEGGED me to sign up... man they're desperate... but anyway i dun THINK i'll join rugby, im not cut out for it. and i really dont have a "passion" or inclination towards that sport. i never liked playing rugby in school.

all in all. CJC RAWKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ar0und tHe w0rLd @* 5:09 AM

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